Update: My LAAHAS

In a blink (not really), two months have gone by and this blog hasn't been updated at all.

I made this near the end of summer, after a life-changing move and somewhat of a loss of self identity. All I knew, of course, was that I was now an Asian stranger who liked food. A couple of weeks and experiences later, I think this is still true. At least, the food part hasn't changed - I'm eating papaya at this very moment. Nor has the Asian part, last time I checked. But am I still a stranger?

Over these past couple of weeks, I've gotten to know a number of people immensely better than I would have thought possible. Yes, I am still strange, and yes, to much of my school and my community I am still a stranger, but it no longer feels that way.

WELL ENOUGH WITH THE SENTIMENTALITY.

I was asked to blog again by a friend who I haven't seen for a while. So I feel like I need to write something funny/profound/groundbreaking...hm.

Vaseline - good for my lips, but I have run out of it. Carmex is also good. Nivea, not so much. Maybelline starts to smell bad after a few months.

Seoyoung - some Korean girl, haven't seen her in a while. She has a couple of bracelets of mine that I worked on for oh, like ten hours. I better be getting some gross letter in the mail soon. Also, wrote this: "Don't you think it would be romantic to get married under a blue moon? Unless they occur annually or something -- that would be horrific. But it sounds like something that would happen every hundred years..."

Friends - I guess there have been an increase in these lately.

Blue moons - are romantic

Blogs - are stupid

I - am running out of ideas

Friends (again) - I wish I could help you with your issues, but sometimes I'm not so good at that, especially when I start getting selfish. Don't worry; I'll try not to get in the way.

Huh - basically the content of my brain

Food - so good. so so good. mmmm yeah that's about it.

Love - is a complicated word. Love...for friends? For family? Does it mean anything if it is only felt, but not applied? How do you rein it in? How do you prevent yourself from loving someone the wrong way? How do you know if it's wrong to love someone? How do you let God show you how to love? How do you express love? How do you know when it is love? How do you love your friends and family, even when it seems too hard? Why am I asking all these questions about this? I am only a silly teenager.

Facebook - has destroyed my well-being. No Facebook = nothing to do. Something must be done about this soon.

Contentment - up and down these days. Some days all I want is some Mexican food and my old house and my old friends. Some days I am just so on top of things, I don't even understand how I'm so happy. Some days, all I can do is whine and complain, and looking in the mirror doesn't help. Contentment is rare these days - but people should make it a goal to find it.

Music - is one of the few things that always makes my life. Imogen Heap, especially Hide and Seek and Goodnight and Go, has been one of my favorites lately. Add some mellow John Mayer (not his personality) and Jay Chou from his earlier years, and my day is made. A cookie would be good, too.

Dresses - not really my thing. I can't really pull them off.

Dances - not really my thing, either. The people in charge always yell at me when I take off my shoes. And the music they play is usually annoying as heck. Also I can't dance.

Athleticism - something I lack

Profound - something this is not

Liking - is for elementary schoolers. I can't believe high school is starting to be this silly again.

Sleep - something that I should do soon.

Joy - sometimes as simple as talking to one of your favorite people. It seems to rarely come after some big extravaganzic preparation of dinosaur proportions.

Dinosaurs - their color is debatable, but they're pretty cool. I hang out with them sometimes.

Family - I don't treat them as well as I should; I couldn't ask for a better set of people to live with.

Anticlimactic - this

Rant - this

The end - this